dancinbutterfly: (Teen Wolf -)
Title: The Moon in Me
Author: [personal profile] dancinbutterfly/dancinbutterfly
Pairing(s): Derek/Stiles
Rating: NC-17
Length: 16,247 words
Warnings/Contains: Gender Issues, Genderqueer!Derek Hale, Bashing of a queer character, Human AU, Fictional Religion & Theology, Friends to Lovers, Dating, Respectful courting, Crossdressing, Male/Genderqueer character sex, Alive Hales, Alive Allison
Notes for my FListThis has been sitting on my HD, completed, for over six months. I had to get it off. It was making me crazy. Also [personal profile] knight_tracer is recording it and I wanted the text posted before the podfic hit the airwaves.
Summary: Derek's never had a word for the line his identity walks between male and female so he goes with the default cisgender term. Before his girlfriend queer bashed him, he was really comfortable with that nonconventional sense of self, embraced it, loved it. Now traumatized he's pulled away from the person inside and hid in the stereotype male facade except for in the most private of places with the closest of family. Stiles, home from school to take care of his dad, may be the first person in a decade Derek can be the real Derek with. It's dangerous because Stiles wants that Derek, he really does.

The Moon In Me on AO3
dancinbutterfly: (Clone High -Life gives you Lemons)
!!!!YULETIDE!!!!

OH MAN YOU GUYS YULETIDE! This is my first Yuletide in two years and I wrote things! I was gifted things! Let me show you them. ♥_♥ First my prezzies ♥_♥  )

Also, I wrote. I wrote for the first time in a very long time and the things I wrote were deeply telling of where my head's at lately. They were all churned out in under three hours(not counting betaing/edits/rewrites) in bursts of creativity I havent experienced since I went back to working full time. They're real shorts and I'm exceedingly proud of all of them. I did something original with them, things that I've never done before even if it was just trying a new fandom so, if its okay I'm going to talk about process and stuff. I havent had a chance to do that in ages and all of the stories are under 3,000 words so they're good places to do it.

1)Title: Zack Don't Surf
For: queenofinsanity6
Fandom: World War Z - Max Brooks
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Choose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Pairing: OFC/OMC
Summary: Pensacola Beach, Florida: An interview with one of the founding members of The Santa Rosa Island Surf Patrol, the first prevention unit to use surfboards as a means to police and prevent zombies emerging from the Gulf of Mexico from reaching the shore.
My Offical Yuletide Fandom Assignment was World War Z: An Oral History of the Zombie War (the book, not the movie - they don't even compare). If you havent read it, it's basically Shoah for a fictional war. Survivors of the war all over the world share their stories with an interviewer who is recording them so that they're not lost to time - the same way Shoah records the first-person stories of Holocaust survivors. So now that you know the source, time to talk fic.

First off - the name. I havent been so damn proud of a title in AGES. Zack is what the people in the book call zombies much like American soldiers in the Vietnam conflict called the Vietcong soldiers Charlie. If you've ever seen Apocalypse Now - arguably the best Vietnam flick ever(arguably - my favorite though)- you know that there is a big emphasis on surfing in the movie revolving around Robert Duvall as a slightly crazy Lt. Col. Kilgore, notable for the line "I love the smell of Napalm in the morning...smells like victory" whose whole platoon were surf-happy. His whole troop are in the middle of an active battle and he decides, hey, time to surf! Six foot swells! The protest is that Charlie owns the point but Kilgore declares "Charlie don't surf!" Same concept here only zombies instead of communist Vietnamese. Yeah. I love it. So much. It just feels right given the content is a surf patrol for zombies that move through water and need to be stopped. I'm genuinely proud of it.

The rest of it was less easy as I spent ages trying to figure out what the actual fuck to do with this. Ages. I couldn't figure it out. Then, literally the day of the deadline it hit me like a storm surge wave - this a fandom built on personal survivor accounts so in order to write something for this fandom I had to go to my own survivor account. If you've been following me for any length of time, you know that I had my personal war with living in Florida and Tallahassee played a roll in the books as a relative safe zone so I figured - fuck it. I'll write what I know. Isnt that what everyone always says? I grew up in the location I used and lived their until I went to college and then on all my breaks. You know want to see some shit go to my tags and click hurricane, real life, family, or go to my very first posts where i talk about updating from my then boyfriends desktop because I was homeless due to housing destruction. It's not an exaggeration when I say my peer group were devastated before we were ably to leave that area. 9/11 opened our high school experience, two wars filled our middle years, and devastating hurricanes closing out our adolescence. Now my peers are dropping like flies. Literally every single character in Zack Don't Surf is named after someone from my graduating class who is now dead.

The story started with a male voice and a fabricated name but I stalled and deleted it. I felt that it was in keeping with the truth of WWZ to share my own losses through the narrative so thats what I did. Jenna, my protagonist, is not living my life. Her trauma is not my trauma but the places she went and love are the places I went and love and the keen sense of loss is my own. I left a large chunk of my heart on the page in Zack Don't Surf. If you want to take a look at my heart as it relates to the place that will always feel like home, even when I have a new place that feels like home, you should go read this one. I havent been truly proud of something I wrote in a long time. It was an experiment in epistolary/interview format to fit the book style and I think it worked. I'd love to know what yall think too. Also if you have any questions about the area - the culture, the lay out of the the Pensacola area, the Navy presence and its effect on the city, my personal experiences, or anything else please ask. I welcome them.


2)Title: Dominic and Submission
For: Opalsong
Fandom: The Fast and the Furious (2001), Fast and the Furious Series
Rating: Mature
Warning: Choose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Pairing: Brian O'Conner/Dominic Toretto
Summary: Brian has hidden his submissive orientation most of his life out of necessity more than desire and he's been fine. Really. Until he meets Dominic Toretto then fine doesn't really fit the situation anymore. A BDSM-universe AU of The Fast and the Furious.
This was an Emergency Pinch Hit. It came out at the very last minute and was written in about an hour of glorious inspiration. I haven't written like that in months. It was beautiful and clear and bright. It was also nice to be able to contribute at the 11th hour rather than sliding in at the last minute for once.

This is also Baby's first BDSM-universe. I've been trying to write one of these for ages and for some reason this one just exploded out of me. Unlike the other ones I've read where submissive or dominant dynamic is tied to sexuality, I decided to equate it closer to a cisgender. Because of that, Brian being in hiding is less about him hating who he is and more about making choices he needs to in order to get by. I'm just so tired of D/s and ABOverses where the submissive or omega hates BEING submissive or omega - hates the very nature of who they are and fight it tooth and nail to the point of where if it is in fact equated with gender(which it is most often in ABO) it would equate with gender dysphoria and yet never treated as such. I also learned about Dr. James Barry aka the first female doctor who lived her entire life as a man around the same time as I wrote this which is where part of the idea came from. It made me think about the fact that sometimes there are reasons not to live as who you are but that doesn't mean you have to hate it. You can like who you are and hate the system or prejudices or dangers that make you need to had that while still valuing your own identity. I don't know if Dr. Barry felt that way but the idea of hiding your cisgender to pursue your dream to due so made me think about this stuff. So, this was an experiment in the difference between hiding and hating. With elements of desire and sexiness thrown in. Then I left the ending open which is something I almost never do. That was rough for me, giving myself permission to just walk away with the door ajar but it was *right* and I have to believe learning how to do that means I'm growing as a writer, doesn't it?

This is also one of the first time's I've gotten a request for a sequel from pretty much every single commenter. I think maybe one person didn't ask. That's new. EVERYONE asked I'm thrown quite frankly. I didnt think it'd cause that strong a reaction. But it did. So, I may be doing a rewatch of the movies because there are definitely elements of the dynamic world I want to explore.


3)Title: Killing To Save Lives Is Like Screwing for Virginity
For: ijemanja, raedbard, 100indecisions
Fandom The Cabin in the Woods (2011)
Rating: Mature
Warning: Suicide, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
Pairing: Gen
Summary: He is no Fool and she is no Virgin. Dana knows that doesn't mean the world has to end. Marty doesn't know how the world will go on.
There are major major spoilers in this one so I'm going to put it behind a cut but I hope you click it. They have to choose. )


So, that's my Yuletide. I think it might be more telling than a What I've Done Recently post could be but I am going to do one of those too.

FIC NOTICE!

Mar. 1st, 2013 06:34 pm
dancinbutterfly: (Hunger Games - Let the Games Begin)
I am locking down Sweetbreads and Sweet Nothings as I, uh, kinda wanna try and turn it into a full blown horror novel and it needs to not be on the internet as it is, especially since I'm going to do a huge overhaul anyway. I'm leaving it up for 24 hours so you can grab a copy if you like it. It's here on DW and LJ and on AO3.

HOWEVER!!! If you copy it to you HD, it needs to not show up on the internet EVER AGAIN. It's my intellectual property - there are countless people here who can back me up on this fact including the fact that I will not be deleting the page itself just making it so only I can access it - so if it shows up, yeah. Exactly. Sorry for the short notice but my week has been fucked up and broken and I'm making serious decisions. I dont regret them at all but I mean them ALL.
dancinbutterfly: (Gone With The Wind)
So, in taking a page out of [personal profile] cathalin's book

I couldn't go without doing Yuletide so I ended up posting a Treat! (The people who offered to help or couldnt help but were sweet about saying no nicely I love your faces).

In the GRAND Yuletide tradition, if you can guess which my fic is, I will (try to) write you a ficlet in any fandom I've written in in the past, say, year(including the fandom I wrote the treat for :D).

CLUES:
1. it is UNDER 2000 words (Stop laughing. I can still write stories that short. No seriously I can. Why are you laughing?)
2. it is in a fandom i have never written in before
3. it is explicit for sexual content
4. it is a heterosexual ship

Additional bonus clue:
5. it is a historical piece set sometime in the 20th century but is not Downton Abbey.

Please at least guess? I wanna know what you THINK even if its not on the money. I just really love this game.

RECS LATER! I ALREADY HAVE ONE! BECAUSE YULETIDE! WHEE!
dancinbutterfly: (Teen Wolf -)
It's been just over a year exactly since I was first hospitalized for my mental illness. Sometime in the next month - I'll be officially discharging from Skyland Trail psychiatric treatment facility. I'm not a different person. I'm more the person I'm supposed to be.

I'm a published writer. I dont get paid for it but I write two columns weekly for the web magazine Den of Geek reviewing tv shows. One for Beauty and the Beast(which is deeply flawed but stars two fairly awesome WOC who I kinda adore), one for Haven which you can read Here. And I've got dibs on the SHIELD TV show when it comes out(\o/COULSON LIVES FURY LIED\O/) and will be doing the Following and Lost Girl in the spring.

I'm going to start coming back to LJ now that things are resettling. Also I'm endevoring to crosspost to DW. But since I'm me and I'm obstinate, I draft and post here and then upload to DW second. I know. Counter-intuitive but with the US staff leaving SUP I'm trying to be supportive while also being proactive in my self defense measures. Anyway. I'm dancinbutterfly over there too if you'd rather read those posts. Comment here for now though please? I'm still getting used to things.

Speaking of getting used to things: I'm adjusted to the new computer(a Mac) from the old computer (a PC) and covered it in stickers. ) How many references can you get? No seriously. I'm curious cause I covered Allison in them. :D

Which reminds me: Teen Wolf ate me. I'm posting all that at AO3 now. After this, I'll be doing a much better job at cross posting the links here. For now, have a fic link dump! All of these are Derek/Stiles. All of these are rated and warned in the AO3 post.


A Californian Werewolf in New York
Collab with [livejournal.com profile] knight_tracer that was originally supposed to be for [livejournal.com profile] pod_together and kinda exploded and [livejournal.com profile] reena_jenkins made a cover. When Derek finally realizes that there's nothing left for him in Beacon Hills, he goes back to New York, gets a life, falls in love and finds his home. Cameo by Oz of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

Tried and Tested Series
1.I'm Betting This Wasn't Beta Tested
Derek is thrown into a violent heat in the wake of Lydia and Peter's actions at the end of Party Guessed. Debilitated by his own needs, Derek reaches out to Stiles, the only person he wants and can hope to trust.
2.Well, You Failed That Pop Quiz
Derek's life is never easy. That's probably why he ends up on Deaton's exam table then Stiles' bedroom. There are some issues no wolf should ever have to deal with and being unexpectedly bred in the aftermath of his heat is at the top of the list.
3.There Will Be an Essay Portion
Dude plus dude does not equal baby. Stiles knows this. He did the math. Only it turns out that werewolf math works differently sometimes. Yeah, Stiles is in so deep. His dad is going to make sure of that.
4.How To Pass A Take-Home Exam
Sheriff Stilinski just learned about werewolves and the upcoming arrival of an unexpected grandchild via an impossible magic pregnancy. He's having a very hard day. Unfortunately, his evening doesn't look like it will be any easier.

And if you dont like to read? Have a listen because there are podfic versions of ALL of these because [livejournal.com profile] dodificus and [livejournal.com profile] knight_tracer are both so awesome I may actually die. Seriously.
dancinbutterfly: (Teen Wolf -)
It's been just over a year exactly since I was first hospitalized for my mental illness. Sometime in the next month - I'll be officially discharging from Skyland Trail psychiatric treatment facility. I'm not a different person. I'm more the person I'm supposed to be.

I'm a published writer. I dont get paid for it but I write two columns weekly for the web magazine Den of Geek reviewing tv shows. One for Beauty and the Beast(which is deeply flawed but stars two fairly awesome WOC who I kinda adore), one for Haven which you can read Here. And I've got dibs on the SHIELD TV show when it comes out(\o/COULSON LIVES FURY LIED\O/) and will be doing the Following and Lost Girl in the spring.

I'm going to start coming back to LJ now that things are resettling. Also I'm endevoring to crosspost to DW. But since I'm me and I'm obstinate, I draft and post here and then upload to DW second. I know. Counter-intuitive but with the US staff leaving SUP I'm trying to be supportive while also being proactive in my self defense measures. Anyway. I'm dancinbutterfly over there too if you'd rather read those posts. Comment here for now though please? I'm still getting used to things.

Speaking of getting used to things: I'm adjusted to the new computer(a Mac) from the old computer (a PC) and covered it in stickers. ) How many references can you get? No seriously. I'm curious cause I covered Allison in them. :D

Which reminds me: Teen Wolf ate me. I'm posting all that at AO3 now. After this, I'll be doing a much better job at cross posting the links here. For now, have a fic link dump! All of these are Derek/Stiles. All of these are rated and warned in the AO3 post.


A Californian Werewolf in New York
Collab with [personal profile] knight_tracer that was originally supposed to be for [community profile] pod_together and kinda exploded and [personal profile] reena_jenkins made a cover. When Derek finally realizes that there's nothing left for him in Beacon Hills, he goes back to New York, gets a life, falls in love and finds his home. Cameo by Oz of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

Tried and Tested Series
1.I'm Betting This Wasn't Beta Tested
Derek is thrown into a violent heat in the wake of Lydia and Peter's actions at the end of Party Guessed. Debilitated by his own needs, Derek reaches out to Stiles, the only person he wants and can hope to trust.
2.Well, You Failed That Pop Quiz
Derek's life is never easy. That's probably why he ends up on Deaton's exam table then Stiles' bedroom. There are some issues no wolf should ever have to deal with and being unexpectedly bred in the aftermath of his heat is at the top of the list.
3.There Will Be an Essay Portion
Dude plus dude does not equal baby. Stiles knows this. He did the math. Only it turns out that werewolf math works differently sometimes. Yeah, Stiles is in so deep. His dad is going to make sure of that.
4.How To Pass A Take-Home Exam
Sheriff Stilinski just learned about werewolves and the upcoming arrival of an unexpected grandchild via an impossible magic pregnancy. He's having a very hard day. Unfortunately, his evening doesn't look like it will be any easier.

And if you dont like to read? Have a listen because there are podfic versions of ALL of these because [personal profile] dodificus and [personal profile] knight_tracer are both so awesome I may actually die. Seriously.
dancinbutterfly: (MCR - Hero!Bob - No Bullshit)
Title: Bound to the Beat
Band(s): My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy
Pairing(s): Bob/Patrick (Bob/Brian, Bob/OMC, Patrick/Anna, Patrick/Brendon, nonromantic Pete/Patrick, Gerard/Brian, Mikey/Pete, Ryan/Spencer, Jamia/Frank)
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 37,400
Warnings: Innate Dominant/submissive identities, soulbonding, prescription drug use and misuse in conjunction with soulbonds, consent issues discussed in regards to soulbonding, reference to canon suicide attempt, BDSM, minor OC character death, still-a-band!AU, a Will who is NOT William Beckett.
Summary: In a near canon world where orientation refers to dominance or submission, not sexuality, almost everyone has a soulmate that is supposed to complement their personality, biology, orientation and heart. Most people look forward to the day when the psionic bond sparks into existence, connecting them to their other halves. However, a trauma left Bob wanting anything but the bond he sees as a dangerous trap, and he takes matters in his own hands to chemically prevent his bond from effecting him. Patrick doesn't know what he did wrong but he knows that for some reason, his soulmate has rejected him and he has to learn to live with that. Between their pasts, their bands, and their hopes, neither of them expects end up where they do - so close with so much distance still between them. (Inspired by the Bound and Determined universe created by Helen78 and Cesare. This fic was written with the authors' permission and knowledge that many elements of the original concept were adjusted to fit my own universe.)

Fic:
Archive of Our Own
or
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

Fanmix:
Lesson of Building High Walls by [livejournal.com profile] alexander_tango
dancinbutterfly: (MCR - Hero!Bob - No Bullshit)
Title: Bound to the Beat
Band(s): My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy
Pairing(s): Bob/Patrick (Bob/Brian, Bob/OMC, Patrick/Anna, Patrick/Brendon, nonromantic Pete/Patrick, Gerard/Brian, Mikey/Pete, Ryan/Spencer, Jamia/Frank)
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 37,400
Warnings: Innate Dominant/submissive identities, soulbonding, prescription drug use and misuse in conjunction with soulbonds, consent issues discussed in regards to soulbonding, reference to canon suicide attempt, BDSM, minor OC character death, still-a-band!AU, a Will who is NOT William Beckett.
Summary: In a near canon world where orientation refers to dominance or submission, not sexuality, almost everyone has a soulmate that is supposed to complement their personality, biology, orientation and heart. Most people look forward to the day when the psionic bond sparks into existence, connecting them to their other halves. However, a trauma left Bob wanting anything but the bond he sees as a dangerous trap, and he takes matters in his own hands to chemically prevent his bond from effecting him. Patrick doesn't know what he did wrong but he knows that for some reason, his soulmate has rejected him and he has to learn to live with that. Between their pasts, their bands, and their hopes, neither of them expects end up where they do - so close with so much distance still between them. (Inspired by the Bound and Determined universe created by Helen78 and Cesare. This fic was written with the authors' permission and knowledge that many elements of the original concept were adjusted to fit my own universe.)

Fic:
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

Fanmix:
Lesson of Building High Walls by [livejournal.com profile] alexander_tango

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