dancinbutterfly: (MCR - Hero!Bob - No Bullshit)
This morning I got a facebook message from the most odious person I went to high school with. It was basically spam except for the fact that he knowingly sent it to me. As he was a total dicksnot, I decided "Screw the high road, I'm going to have fun." Before you, is the conversation with the names removed because I do believing in privacy but there's no innocence here yall.

Hey, Rachael! I hope you're having a great weekend! **** and I are on our way back from Nashville from a Rodan and Fields conference. We had a blast and we are gearing up for an awesome 2014! They just announced that our next convention will be in ******* this September! There is going to be another business presentation at the W Hotel in downtown ******* this Friday night. Are you free on Friday night? We would love for you to go and hear about it! Let me know and I'll put you on the guest list! :)


The exclamation points. *pinches the bridge of her nose* I just- *exhales* Even if I did like him, the exclamation point abuse would require punishment. What did the exclamation point ever do to you?

Hey there ***,
So, I'm not exactly sure how we ended up facebook friends except for the fact that I pay so little attention to facebook 99.99% of the time(this is my bi-monthly check for family activity)that I used to click accept without paying attention but sweetheart, you do remember that we don't like each other, right? Every class we had together in high school was an exercise in angry glares and quiet loathing. While I'm super happy to be able to count you as a casual acquaintance rather than The Only Person Who Had A Problem With Me In High School and Outright Hated Me Starting in Coach McAuley's 9th Grade English Class and Wasn't Afraid To Tell Me To My Face, I would not consider that grounds for me to care enough about you or your affairs to sit through a conference hocking skin care(and it is skincare right? I had to google Rodan and Holland as I have never heard of them before but go you and your face cream). Especially not when I could be doing something truly valuable to society - like watching videos of cats on youtube or playing angry birds.

On a whatever date your shindig is on I will either be out with friends or perhaps head to bed early as I have a job that requires me to work during the day on Fridays. By Friday all the give-a-fuck-about-things-that-don't-matter, like Rodan and Holland skin care for example, has been sucked from my very soul. I don't see that changing by September. So it is with regret I must decline your generous offer of a spot on what I am sure will be a jam-packed guest list.

I would also like to encourage you not to send me your little business machinations in the future as I wont care then either. Feel free to not contact me again until a class reunion.

That said I wish you luck in your endeavors and a happy new year.


The amount of unholy glee writing that gave me - yall there arent words. There are. No. Words. Most of the time, I do take the high road. I take abuse from my mom daily and my sister whenever she's in town. I always take it at work with students and I strive to be the kind of person who looks cashiers and waitstaff in the eye and thanks them every single time because those people matter and last. Not this time. The low road was just too tempting; I ran down it like Usain fucking Bolt and it was glorious.

In other news - I havent had more than a days work in 2 weeks because I have strep throat. I should be noncontagious by the weekend though. Yay. And if you haven't asked me a question yet for the February Talk Meme PLEASE PLEASE DO SO! There are 21 sad empty spots left! You can fill them! Come on! Fandom questions! TMI questions! Political questions(which could be TMI...)! Unpopular opinion questions! Fic what I wrote questions! Poor life choices questions! Other questions you are better at coming up with than me! You dont even have to pick a day if you dont want. Just ask.
dancinbutterfly: (Clone High -Life gives you Lemons)
I really want to get talking again so help me by participating in this for me? Thank you so much in advance.

Found at [personal profile] mithen's: Pick a date below and give me a topic - anything from fandom related (specific fandoms, characters, pairings, episodes, etc.) to real life to opinions to whatever else you want, and I promise to ramble/rant/rave/whathaveyou on the appointed day. *g* If I get requests for the same day I'll just put it on an empty day but still answer it!

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9- The best nonfiction book you've read lately. [personal profile] eledhwenlin
10- Fandom tropes that many people enjoy but you really don't and why [personal profile] kat_lair
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12-What's your process for writing? Eg... do you write linearly, write the ending first, etc... [personal profile] ceares
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14- Tell me about your favourite foods to eat and/or cook [personal profile] kat_lair
15- What's your beta process and do you enjoy the editing part of writing? [personal profile] ceares
16- What's your favourite fic trope you've never written? Or favourite story you haven't got around to writing, if you've written all your favourite tropes? [personal profile] blackeyedgirl
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18- Favourite poets, with example poem from each and why you like them. [personal profile] kat_lair
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20-The one story, pro, fannish, screenplay, poem,(or one of each) etc... that you wish you'd written and why? [personal profile] ceares
21- Your dream house/dwelling to live in, i.e. if you could design your home with no restrictions except your imagination, what would it be like [personal profile] kat_lair
22- What usually gets you into a fandom (I'm just curious, for me it's really random sometimes, like there is one interesting minor character but i'm not even watching the show...)
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24-Do you have a favorite fandom? It doesn't have to be one that you still write in (or have ever written in) or read all the time. But one that holds a special place for you? [personal profile] ixchel55
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28- I'd love to see photos of your favourite pieces of jewellery. [personal profile] ambersnake

Ask ask ask! I want to talk, just give a topic :D
dancinbutterfly: (Clone High -Life gives you Lemons)
- I can has a job! I'm officially a substitute teachers. Mostly I tell 11-13 olds to be quiet, sit down, dont touch that, no you may not go to the bathroom, no i dont care what your teacher normally does because this is what we're doing today, no you may not work in groups, and if you're going to talk to me you can look me in the eye because thats what civilized people do when they have a verbal discourse. Then I get to move them to different seats around the room, write their names down, send them to different teachers or call an administrator to come "deal with them."

However, there are shining moments when I get to teach, though its not always related to the subject matter. I got to stop a a kid in a social studies class who told someone they were worthless and should kill themselves and tell them and the rest of the class why they should never, EVER, talk like that using my life and my loss as an example. In a math class, after overhearing a small argument, I broke it up then I explained why calling a guy a "girl" to insult him along with any other feminine based insult is actually degrading to women and lowering both them as men and as human beings and showing the girls that yes, this is a bigger problem than it looks like. That same class I also explained what a parallelogram is and how its different from a rhombus to a problem case who was giving me tzurus ten minutes before but is sitting with me at the desk taking rapt notes now because I have answers in a different way of describing it than his math teacher did.

And sometimes, like today, you have a horrible day where the kids curse and storm out and cuss at each other and actually cheer when you leave but then, in your last period - there's a tiny moment of light. They're doing a packet on Leonardo da Vinci and when they're done they ask "well now what do we do?" Read? Draw? Talk very quietly amongst yourselves? Or we could talk about da Vinci and how he wasnt just an artist but also a crazy genius who designed things a crazy death scythe chariot, a machine gun, and robots. Most of the class chose to do the first three but I had one boy come from the VERY back of the class, with his chair, set it down in front of me and say "Tell me more about Da Vinci." And in the 20 minutes left in class I covered with this kid - iconographic art and the transition to more realistic renaissance portraiture and scenes(ala the last supper), the advent of the printing press, medieval medicine, the limited understanding of the human body, the value of the vitruvian man, the working helicopter models da Vinci came up with, and how on top of being a genius, this was the point in history when people were starting to realize that the world around them was bigger than just their homes and neighbors. He sat there, when he could've been in the back with his friends chatting, with me talking about these historical things, and at the end of the class wanted to know more to the point that I got to direct him to the library. That one kid made my whole freaking day worth getting up for. Well that and the money, obvs. :P

-Everybody holding up okay after MikeyWaygate2013? Man. That could've been avoided if he had a sassy gay friend. Seriously Mikey - what what what are you doing? Look at your life, look at your choices. Sucks that its happening because the two of them were always so....lovely when I saw them together. I'm not judging because DBT teaches no judgement and I'm trying to practice that. I still love this band a stupid degree. Doesnt affect the way I look at them as artists although I'm less physically attracted to Mikey now. Mostly, I feel markedly bad for Alicia because she was nothing but kind and friendly to me every time we met. If she was anything near as nice to her friends as she was to a strange little fangirl like me, then she definitely doesnt deserve this kind of hurt. So for that, I has a sad :(

-My mom is far less verbally abusive and is almost back to normal. Like she was possessed - Supernatural style - and Sam and Dean snuck in and exorcised her without me noticing. YAY! Avoiding her is really helping but she's more relaxed now I've got a job. My dad is still mindfucking her over the divorce stuff (even though they signed the papers 10 years ago - they're still in court. Yeah.) That should be getting closer to the end soon. The trial is next month. My sister is currently in town. BEHOLD! A PICTURE OF US! I am the heavy set one in stripes. She is the beautiful one. Seriously. Very glad she's here but there's now 3 of us in 2 bedrooms. *facepalm* this apartment isnt built for that.
picture )

-Mental health: waxes and wanes. The very best way to get ahold of me is to chat with me via gchat, aim, yim etc because when I get low, I dont post here on LJ or DW for weeks because of, well, the depression. Then I stick to tumblr where I reblog pictures of Teen Wolf, Avengers, and OUAT characters sometimes with snarky commentary. I'm on a new cocktail and it seems to be working for now though.

-Addicted to Hollyoaks. Like badly. Like - I went back to 2011 and have been watching the full half hour eps in order. Send help?

-For later! I wrote since last we spoke. 2 for The Hour during Yuletide, and at least 3 for Teen Wolf that isn't up here but I'll do an official posty thing for them when its not almost 5am. Also there are TMI sex things I want to blog/talk to you guys about they're long and thinky and TMI so again, not for 5am. This whole area is for next post.

-Things are a hot mess all over - but with my new job, my old crazy, my sister in the house, MikeyWaygate2013, and all the other craziness that is going on in my world (and there's more but its too day-to-day to detail), I signed up for the words and deeds meme and thats my thread. I could use some of this for a push through to the other side to Tuesday (when my sister will have left for Colorado, I dont know why she's going, and my mom will have left for Florida and the trial and will not be getting her negative scary on me).

-Lastly, you guys Warm Bodies comes out Friday in the US. It's a zom-rom-com. Oh yeah. Zombie romantic comedy. If you can go see it, please do. We want this one to do well so it will encourage the studios to make smarter more interesting movies rather than the same crap over and over. Plus, John Malkovich is in it, and along with Nicholas Hoult(the kid from About A Boy who grew up, got hot, and then was on Skins) and Rob Cordry as zombies yes.
dancinbutterfly: (*Icons with my face - Gerard)
Stolen from [livejournal.com profile] isweedan and [livejournal.com profile] ladyfoxxx

Think of this as a template. If you want to skip a question, go ahead. If you want to add your own questions or just ramble on about bandom or fanfiction, feel free! Just do a podcast or a voice post or whatever you can to get your voice on the internets for all of us to hear.

1. What's your username and is there a story behind it?
2. Where are you from and where do you live now?
3. What are you wearing? Yes, I am hitting on you.
4. How long have you been in bandom? How did you get into it?
5. Which bands are your favorites?
6. Which band members are your favorites?
7. Have you seen any of them in concert? Any fun stories or memories to share?
8. Do you have an OTP? What is it, and why do you love it?
9. What story do you wish someone would write?
10. Are you working on something for bandom right now? Tell us a little bit about it.
11. You've got fic open somewhere on your computer right now, don't lie. So go to one of your open tabs or word documents or whatever, and read us a couple of lines.
12. Say these words: Iero, haberdashery, LOLcat, flist, dirigible, halcyon, nemesis, ephemeral, languorous

Bandom voice meme - dancinbutterfly by ellidyay
dancinbutterfly: (*Icons with my face - Gerard)
Stolen from [livejournal.com profile] isweedan and [livejournal.com profile] ladyfoxxx

Think of this as a template. If you want to skip a question, go ahead. If you want to add your own questions or just ramble on about bandom or fanfiction, feel free! Just do a podcast or a voice post or whatever you can to get your voice on the internets for all of us to hear.

1. What's your username and is there a story behind it?
2. Where are you from and where do you live now?
3. What are you wearing? Yes, I am hitting on you.
4. How long have you been in bandom? How did you get into it?
5. Which bands are your favorites?
6. Which band members are your favorites?
7. Have you seen any of them in concert? Any fun stories or memories to share?
8. Do you have an OTP? What is it, and why do you love it?
9. What story do you wish someone would write?
10. Are you working on something for bandom right now? Tell us a little bit about it.
11. You've got fic open somewhere on your computer right now, don't lie. So go to one of your open tabs or word documents or whatever, and read us a couple of lines.
12. Say these words: Iero, haberdashery, LOLcat, flist, dirigible, halcyon, nemesis, ephemeral, languorous

Bandom voice meme - dancinbutterfly by ellidyay
dancinbutterfly: (*Icons with my face - Mikey and Alicia)
1. Think of up to 20 ships you support.
2. List them using descriptions of the characters involved rather than their names.
3. Have your f-list guess as many of the ships as they can.
4. Fandom hints will be given if asked in the comments.


1. the pop culture punching bag and everyone's kid brother Pete Wentz/Mikey Way guessed by [livejournal.com profile] csi_vixen
2. the art student turned army recruit and his friend lost in winter Steve/Bucky guessed by [livejournal.com profile] csi_vixen
3. the kid from the wrong side of town and the loner he pulled out of his nerdiness Seth/Ryan guessed by stele3
4. the dazed cop, the desperate mother, and the guilty friend Rick/Lori/Shane guessed by [livejournal.com profile] bibliokat
5. the rich out of touch scientist and the kick-ass Girl Friday who may stop waiting for him Antman/Wasp guessed by stele3
6. the armed beauty and the stone beast Elisa/Goliath guessed by [livejournal.com profile] csi_vixen
7. the winged man and the beautiful busty brains behind him The Monarch/Dr Mrs The Monarch guessed by stele3
8. the computer genius with a crossbow and silent but deadly Jensen/Cougar guessed by [livejournal.com profile] bitterlotus
9. the girl who couldnt say no and the boy she learned to say it for Ella/Char guessed by [livejournal.com profile] csi_vixen
10.the vampire and the boy who made him Eric/Godric guessed by stele3
11.the zombie and her very tall "puppy" Laura/Shadow guessed by [livejournal.com profile] oanja
12. the black power and the guy who's not a goddamn tracer Hooper/Banky guessed by [livejournal.com profile] trcunning
13. the pretty boy and the management Vince/Eric guessed by [livejournal.com profile] evildudesrule
14. the damaged hero and the paranoid pill-popper Stg.Brody/Carrie guessed by [livejournal.com profile] end_of_thyme
15. the late rock star and the DDS Henry/Suzy guessed by [livejournal.com profile] isweedan
16. the only wizard in the phonebook and the man with the money colored eyes Harry/Marcone guessed by [livejournal.com profile] isweedan
17. the doctor and the man with the way to win the no-win scenario Kirk/Bones guessed by stele3and [livejournal.com profile] merelyn within a minute of each other
18. the physicist and the waitress Leonard/Penny guessed by [livejournal.com profile] bibliokat
19. the intern and the patient Izzy/Denny guessed by [livejournal.com profile] merelyn
20. the girl and her bloodsucking boss Cordelia/Angel guessed by [livejournal.com profile] ravenrants
dancinbutterfly: (*Icons with my face - Mikey and Alicia)
1. Think of up to 20 ships you support.
2. List them using descriptions of the characters involved rather than their names.
3. Have your f-list guess as many of the ships as they can.
4. Fandom hints will be given if asked in the comments.


1. the pop culture punching bag and everyone's kid brother Pete Wentz/Mikey Way guessed by [livejournal.com profile] csi_vixen
2. the art student turned army recruit and his friend lost in winter Steve/Bucky guessed by [livejournal.com profile] csi_vixen
3. the kid from the wrong side of town and the loner he pulled out of his nerdiness Seth/Ryan guessed by stele3
4. the dazed cop, the desperate mother, and the guilty friend Rick/Lori/Shane guessed by [livejournal.com profile] bibliokat
5. the rich out of touch scientist and the kick-ass Girl Friday who may stop waiting for him Antman/Wasp guessed by stele3
6. the armed beauty and the stone beast Elisa/Goliath guessed by [livejournal.com profile] csi_vixen
7. the winged man and the beautiful busty brains behind him The Monarch/Dr Mrs The Monarch guessed by stele3
8. the computer genius with a crossbow and silent but deadly Jensen/Cougar guessed by [livejournal.com profile] bitterlotus
9. the girl who couldnt say no and the boy she learned to say it for Ella/Char guessed by [livejournal.com profile] csi_vixen
10.the vampire and the boy who made him Eric/Godric guessed by stele3
11.the zombie and her very tall "puppy" Laura/Shadow guessed by [livejournal.com profile] oanja
12. the black power and the guy who's not a goddamn tracer Hooper/Banky guessed by [livejournal.com profile] trcunning
13. the pretty boy and the management Vince/Eric guessed by [livejournal.com profile] evildudesrule
14. the damaged hero and the paranoid pill-popper Stg.Brody/Carrie guessed by [livejournal.com profile] end_of_thyme
15. the late rock star and the DDS Henry/Suzy guessed by [livejournal.com profile] isweedan
16. the only wizard in the phonebook and the man with the money colored eyes Harry/Marcone guessed by [livejournal.com profile] isweedan
17. the doctor and the man with the way to win the no-win scenario Kirk/Bones guessed by stele3and [livejournal.com profile] merelyn within a minute of each other
18. the physicist and the waitress Leonard/Penny guessed by [livejournal.com profile] bibliokat
19. the intern and the patient Izzy/Denny guessed by [livejournal.com profile] merelyn
20. the girl and her bloodsucking boss Cordelia/Angel guessed by [livejournal.com profile] ravenrants
dancinbutterfly: (Default)

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Yea, verily: Who is that, skulking over the mini-mall parking lot! It is Rachael, hands clutching a sharpened screwdriver! And with an ominous cry, her voice cometh:

"I'm seriously going to fuck you until you're translucent!"

Find out!
Enter username:
Are you a girl, or a guy ?

created by beatings : powered by monkeys

dancinbutterfly: (Default)

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Yea, verily: Who is that, skulking over the mini-mall parking lot! It is Rachael, hands clutching a sharpened screwdriver! And with an ominous cry, her voice cometh:

"I'm seriously going to fuck you until you're translucent!"

Find out!
Enter username:
Are you a girl, or a guy ?

created by beatings : powered by monkeys

dancinbutterfly: (Clone High -Life gives you Lemons)
:( I'm losing a [livejournal.com profile] sly_fuck this morning and also life has gotten a little bit more real again. *sigh*

But to make things a little better, there's this.
THE YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL MEME


My thread's here and as soon as I get back from the airport, I will be spamming people with love for their gorgeousness. Things are rough all over so spread some love, yeah? I think we all could use it.
dancinbutterfly: (Clone High -Life gives you Lemons)
:( I'm losing a [livejournal.com profile] sly_fuck this morning and also life has gotten a little bit more real again. *sigh*

But to make things a little better, there's this.
THE YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL MEME


My thread's here and as soon as I get back from the airport, I will be spamming people with love for their gorgeousness. Things are rough all over so spread some love, yeah? I think we all could use it.
dancinbutterfly: (*Icons with my face - Gerard)
Everybody's doing it! \o/Peer Pressure\o/

My Fic Round Up for 2010 )
dancinbutterfly: (*Icons with my face - Gerard)
Everybody's doing it! \o/Peer Pressure\o/

My Fic Round Up for 2010 )
dancinbutterfly: (Grey's Anatomy - Friends)
If you read this, you're tagged. Take a picture of you in your current state, no changing your clothes or quickly putting on makeup. NO PHOTOSHOP. Show your f-list the real you!

I'm at work and I had to figure out how to work my webcam as a camera but if you wanna see, here it is. )

Anyway - so, I got a lot done. Apparently being mentally ill is the thing that has finally made me into an adult. Monday I got off a 9hr shift and promptly went to my doctor to get my records, then over to Borders to wait until Best Buy opened at 10 to go buy my tv. Then I took my records to the Student Disability Resource Center and I got officially registered with them. This is an insanely good thing because it means that if i have a freak out or cant get out of bed or the Ativan makes me so hungover I cant think - I shoot an email to the SDRC and my teachers and I get accommodations and breathing room. Which I desperately need.

Then Tuesday I took an exam, talked to the teacher about the SDRC stuff, came home, crawled under my bed, took apart the plate on the wall so I could fix the cable, built shelves, put the new TV up, then organized the shelves. And then I crashed. Hard.

This burst of productivity is good. Except that it's not so good on all counts because it means I'm in crisis mode. The fire tonight exaggerated and its apparently one of my touchy spots is general chaos. *sighs* I'm going to burn out hard this weekend. I expect there will be much fic reading and not going outside-ing. But I can't deal with that now.

So in closing, considering I'm I just finished a 1000 word paper on the Aeneid for my Roman Way class and have an exam on Greco-Roman myth on Thursday, I will leave you with this. For it is adorbz.
dancinbutterfly: (Grey's Anatomy - Friends)
If you read this, you're tagged. Take a picture of you in your current state, no changing your clothes or quickly putting on makeup. NO PHOTOSHOP. Show your f-list the real you!

I'm at work and I had to figure out how to work my webcam as a camera but if you wanna see, here it is. )

Anyway - so, I got a lot done. Apparently being mentally ill is the thing that has finally made me into an adult. Monday I got off a 9hr shift and promptly went to my doctor to get my records, then over to Borders to wait until Best Buy opened at 10 to go buy my tv. Then I took my records to the Student Disability Resource Center and I got officially registered with them. This is an insanely good thing because it means that if i have a freak out or cant get out of bed or the Ativan makes me so hungover I cant think - I shoot an email to the SDRC and my teachers and I get accommodations and breathing room. Which I desperately need.

Then Tuesday I took an exam, talked to the teacher about the SDRC stuff, came home, crawled under my bed, took apart the plate on the wall so I could fix the cable, built shelves, put the new TV up, then organized the shelves. And then I crashed. Hard.

This burst of productivity is good. Except that it's not so good on all counts because it means I'm in crisis mode. The fire tonight exaggerated and its apparently one of my touchy spots is general chaos. *sighs* I'm going to burn out hard this weekend. I expect there will be much fic reading and not going outside-ing. But I can't deal with that now.

So in closing, considering I'm I just finished a 1000 word paper on the Aeneid for my Roman Way class and have an exam on Greco-Roman myth on Thursday, I will leave you with this. For it is adorbz.
dancinbutterfly: (*Icons with my face - Mikey and Ray)
the that's my favorite! meme
A FANFICTION PRAISE MEME


Yeah, with the months I've been having, I'm powerless to resist. And if you did it, let me know so I can tell you how much I adore YOU!


While we're here - ignoring reality - have a few Top 5s.
5 people Brian Schechter punched in the face for trcunning )

Top 5 bandom friendships(I'm assuming she means of major players, not people I am friends with through bandom) for morebliss - WITH PICTURES! )

Top 5 Smells for hexapuma )
dancinbutterfly: (*Icons with my face - Mikey and Ray)
the that's my favorite! meme
A FANFICTION PRAISE MEME


Yeah, with the months I've been having, I'm powerless to resist. And if you did it, let me know so I can tell you how much I adore YOU!


While we're here - ignoring reality - have a few Top 5s.
5 people Brian Schechter punched in the face for trcunning )

Top 5 bandom friendships(I'm assuming she means of major players, not people I am friends with through bandom) for morebliss - WITH PICTURES! )

Top 5 Smells for hexapuma )
dancinbutterfly: (Zombieland - Tallahassee)
I mean, they were paper and you got to keep them. The teachers wrote notes in about your performance on them (totally my favorite part - my English teachers tended to put "is a joy to have in class" and that always made me puff up). But yeah. I got my grades back. B in Latin American Film and a C in Comprehensive Elementary Spanish. You guys, this is a motherfucking miracle. You dont even know.

Considering that the LA Film Class had a paper and exam when my depression was SPIKING? That I showed up at his office crying because I could barely function and was in a panic? I'm shocked I did this well. Genuinely. I dont know how I managed to get out of bed let alone get passing, keep-my-job grades.

I'm in relieved shock. I'm taking one hard classes and 3 Mickey Mouse classes because I like my job, I've got a psychiatrist that listens when I tell him whats wrong with my meds and I've got a therapist that works for me. If it takes me another year, year and a half to graduate? I'll deal. Because I fucking hate Tallahassee but I'm working on it. I got a bigger Pell grant and my scholarship back so I can afford it.Whatever right?

In other news, I'm still in Atlanta and relieved as fuck about that as well. I'm still suffering from the whole anxiety/agoraphobia thing but since I'm at my mom's, its less isolationist. I don't really go outside but she's here so I'm not all alone. It makes a difference. And! And! I went out into public on Tuesday. And I will be going out into public again on Saturday! The ativan makes that so much easier, although I did learn that I am not as well as I thought I was recently. It's still fairly crippling, but hey. Progress is progress right?

Right.

For fun, to talk about something else, lets do the meme that's going around. ASK ME! I WANT TO ANSWER!:
Ask me my Top Five Whatevers. Fannish or otherwise. Any top fives. Doesn't matter what, really! And I will answer them all in a new post. Possibly with pictures.
dancinbutterfly: (Zombieland - Tallahassee)
I mean, they were paper and you got to keep them. The teachers wrote notes in about your performance on them (totally my favorite part - my English teachers tended to put "is a joy to have in class" and that always made me puff up). But yeah. I got my grades back. B in Latin American Film and a C in Comprehensive Elementary Spanish. You guys, this is a motherfucking miracle. You dont even know.

Considering that the LA Film Class had a paper and exam when my depression was SPIKING? That I showed up at his office crying because I could barely function and was in a panic? I'm shocked I did this well. Genuinely. I dont know how I managed to get out of bed let alone get passing, keep-my-job grades.

I'm in relieved shock. I'm taking one hard classes and 3 Mickey Mouse classes because I like my job, I've got a psychiatrist that listens when I tell him whats wrong with my meds and I've got a therapist that works for me. If it takes me another year, year and a half to graduate? I'll deal. Because I fucking hate Tallahassee but I'm working on it. I got a bigger Pell grant and my scholarship back so I can afford it.Whatever right?

In other news, I'm still in Atlanta and relieved as fuck about that as well. I'm still suffering from the whole anxiety/agoraphobia thing but since I'm at my mom's, its less isolationist. I don't really go outside but she's here so I'm not all alone. It makes a difference. And! And! I went out into public on Tuesday. And I will be going out into public again on Saturday! The ativan makes that so much easier, although I did learn that I am not as well as I thought I was recently. It's still fairly crippling, but hey. Progress is progress right?

Right.

For fun, to talk about something else, lets do the meme that's going around. ASK ME! I WANT TO ANSWER!:
Ask me my Top Five Whatevers. Fannish or otherwise. Any top fives. Doesn't matter what, really! And I will answer them all in a new post. Possibly with pictures.

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